A Different Path

I said, yesterday, that I identified a need when I was writing my journal; a decision I was facing. This morning, I started writing such a negative entry, I was, initially, confused. I couldn't work out why I felt so frustrated. Then, I realised what had apparently gone wrong.

Yesterday's journal entry surprised me. I wasn't prepared for the insight that popped up and it shocked me. Then, when I started writing this morning, I felt lost. I had a need that I didn't know about. I stopped and asked myself why I was choosing to be so negative. Then I explored some more. I realised that it wasn't an issue so much as an insight. I was making an issue out of a choice that faced me. I had expected one answer, but I gave myself a different one. I had planned my life around taking one turning, but I realised that I had the map upside down.

As soon as I got to the bottom of my problem, it wasn't a problem anymore. I could move on. I could plan my route with more confidence. I still have to make the decision, but now I realise that it's not so crucial. I can continue on my journey and see what happens. Because, undoubtedly, I will change my point of view now that I am on a different path from the one I expected to be on. And who knows what insights that will lead to?

And that's why keeping a journal works for me.